Let go of it
March 3, 2009
Days like today I can’t help but remember how human I am. I say that realizing it sounds strange but, really think about it. Do you live every day in constant acknowledgement that you are human, that you are capable of making mistakes, capable of second guessing, capable of forgetting the realities of life? I spent the last week thinking about of a lot of big things.. things that just itched their way into my thoughts and I just let these ideas stir around in my mind and didn’t do anything about them. Eventually this all built up and today I found myself feeling drained. I allowed all this crap to build up and just stew, I didn’t realize how much it was taking out of me. I have felt like an emotionless zombie the past two days because I had been refusing to acknowledge my problems and talk it out, or think it out. I’m so lucky that my friend called me tonight and made me talk to her. I was so reluctant at first because I just simply didn’t know how to seperate out these ideas and communicate them to her. I still sort of feel like I just babbled random sentences that made no sense.. physically getting those things out and talking about them really did help. I am now feeling re vamped. I feel like a computer who had a full hard drive, moving slowly and unable to process anything and now I have emtied my trash and cleared up room to move!
Refreshed.. and inspired!
