How we come is not how we leave.

I haven’t blogged in quite some time. I haven’t really written much lately at all. Dry spell, maybe. I looked back through my notebook the other night and i’ve written one poem per month for the last five months. I’ve journaled here and there but, mostly just about something important happening or when I need to record some thoughts from a quiet time. Tonight, i’m trying really hard to write something important and deep and meaningful but im just empty. I had a really stupid past two weeks. I basically set myself up for some really dumb things to happen. And, yeah I learned my lesson but, I’m stuck here wanting to have some ‘moral of the story’ to tell. And, I don’t because what happened was so obviously stupid that there is nothing more to it than that. So, maybe I can go somewhere with this. I’ll just say this: sometime we need to do something stupid. Nothing destructive or harmful to ourselves or others by all means. But, sometimes stupid things happen, and we realize they were stupid and that is all we were meant to learn. We are all just children after all. When we’re young we fall down and learn not to run so fast. We burn our hands and learn not to touch a curling iron. Then we grow up a little more and make some bigger mistakes. Maybe we cheat on a test and get caught. You learn not to do that again, or maybe to do it better haha. Maybe we lie to a friend, and we realize our responsibility as a friend. These are things that shape our entire future and our growing up, but they aren’t deep and meaningful. They are things that we have to do in order to learn a basic and yes, stupid lesson. 

So, I guess I need to stop beating myself up or stop thinking all my mistakes are so important. I’m just a kid.

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