Life and learning.
October 29, 2009
I have recently come to a cross roads.
I’ve been going back and forth on this strange battle of control. I control things too much, then I let go of control and things get messy. It is so hard to know what is right and wrong. I mean, I’m young and I’m trying to find that balance between having fun and being stupid. Yeah, it doesn’t sound like a serious issue, but at my age these little things become tough. You want to be doing the right thing and sometimes you don’t know what that is. So, it’s basically been a live and learn at this point. Especially when I don’t have people near me with the same beliefs as me. But I came to a serious conclusion the other day. I was asking myself ’how do I live in this world and keep my grounding in God?’ I realized that the satisfactions of the world aren’t things to be avoided. But, they can easily take priority over God in your day to day. I came to see that if I am not first and formost satisfied in God, that I can’t be satisfied in the world. That if I’m not in a good place in my spritual life, I will fall victim to earthly issues. So, right now I’m just tyring to figure that out. I’m trying to find satisfaction in God, know who He is and learn more about Him. It’s complex, it’s not easy, and it’s going to be a big lesson.
